Although Aunt Linda was crying awfully hard anyone who knew her could tell that the only reason that she was crying was because she had to pay any more than a dollar towards her mother’s funeral let alone anything to do with her mother.
Aunt Linda was my mothers’ older sister. She was the child who became forgotten after my mother was born. Even when my mother was older Linda’s relation with her mother wasn’t nearly as strong as theirs. But Linda didn’t really care until when my mother and grandma would take my mother out on little day trips. I started out occasional but then it became routinely. Linda became furious about it. Once when they were out Linda looked in my mothers’ diary. The diary revealed detailed pages about her outing with my grandmother. Apparently they were helping souls of dead ones. Linda was confused about what she had read but she wanted so desperately to be her mothers’ favourite. So she would go up to her mother and say “wow. Weird I just saw dad, But like as a ghost, it’s like I just saw his soul” But my mother and grandmother knew that she was lying because they had helped my grandfather “cross over in to the light of heaven” a long time ago.
When Linda had seen no sign of being a favourite she began to try to make her mother feel guilty by almost committing suicide several times. She would always blame not having her mothers’ love or the fact that her dad had died. So once a week Linda and my grandmother would have the whole Wednesday together, Linda would even stay home from school sometimes. Then my mother decided that Linda was okay and they no longer had their Wednesdays together my mother would feel guilty and try to get her mother to spend time with her and even my mother would go and talk to Linda but Linda would brush her off. Then Linda became distant to the world. You could see her slowly dying inside. I hurt my mother that grandma would do such a thing. Then my mother and grandmother got into a big fight about it. It lasted for months and months then finally my grandmother explained why she would never spend any unnecessary time with her was because she was not her daughter. She was the child of her ex-husband.
to be continued...
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